So I need a little mommy moment today.
We are on the countdown at our house. This is not a countdown I am looking forward to.
It is the countdown until we are empty nesters. I’m not going to tell you how many days it is because it just makes me sad and anxious. But it’s not enough!
Tessa will be headed to Utah at the end of June with Cali to enjoy the laid back atmosphere of college life in the summer, take a few classes, live in an apartment with her sister and have a good time.
As excited as I am for them, I am sad for me because I don’t get to go with.
This new phase of life I am facing is making me a tad bit anxious and very sentimental. I am trying to enjoy every minute of the time I have left.
In fact, I am enjoying it so much there are a lot of things I don’t mind anymore.
I don’t mind that my kitchen looks like this most of the time.
I don’t mind that my grocery bill has more than doubled as we explore this new world of wheat free, sugar free, dairy free and yeast free eating as we try to help Cali get healthier. My cupboards are now full of spelt, rye and brown rice flour, potato starch, tapioca flour and xanthan gum (what the heck is that!?)
I don’t mind that there seems to be endless piles of shoes. (O.K. – two of those pair are mine!)
I don’t mind that my dining room has been turned into a messy study hall for those AP exams Tessa is taking this week.
I don’t mind that my craft room has been taken over by the girl’s projects.
I don’t mind that there are a lot of unmade beds in my house.
And clothes on the floor. I don’t mind.
I don’t mind because in a few short weeks my kitchen will stay clean a lot more and my grocery bill will be a lot less, there won’t be any one’s shoes to pick up but mine and Jim’s. The dining room will stay clean and the beds will be made (well, at least most of the time). And there will be way too much quiet at my house. And I do mind that!
This afternoon I dropped something off at the home of a young mother. Her house had kids running in and out and the floors were cluttered with shoes, backpacks, clothes, baseball gear etc. She apologized for the mess as we stepped over it to get to the door but I didn’t mind and I hope she learns not to mind either. It means someone lives there and that’s a very good thing!
So I’m just going to enjoy every minute of the noise, the mess and the craziness while I can!